I continue to process my Honduras mission trip and how that changes my perspective of the Christmas season. I feel like there's so much that I've been missing because of all the stuff that's distracting me from the heart of God. Oh, how I want to be blind to the distractions instead of blind to the reality.
That thought reminds me of a dream I had last year. I love to analyze dreams and try to figure out what God might be trying to show me. I don’t put too much stock in it, but it is interesting how God can use them.
I had arrived a little late to church, during the first song, slipped into a seat and realized it was Carolyn Roach next to me. She had dark glasses on and a metal walking stick. She was sitting with a man who was describing things to her. She was blind. Her head was back, her arms swept back behind her, her voice aimed directly at the throne of God.
When Carolyn sings, the angels must look around to see who’s missing. She truly has a voice that captures the essence of “the voice of an angel.” Aside from her obviously extraordinary gift, you can just feel that she’s singing from the depths of her soul; and that moves me to sing that way, too. Forget the world; forget who’s next to me; sing for my Creator and Him alone; be blind to the distractions; see only reality.
It makes me think of my grandmother who was going blind from diabetes. We knocked on her door one Thanksgiving, and as I hugged her on my way in I asked, “How are your eyes?” And her chipper, smiling response was, “I can see good enough to walk!” I will never forget that. I want to be like that. No matter what happens in my life, I want to pick out that glimmer of hope that is steeped in Truth and not just hang on to it, but flaunt it! I guess that’s what I saw Carolyn doing in my dream. Singing her heart out because of her blindness. I need to do that this Christmas season – sing as if only my soul can see!
